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I am from Hazleton, A small former coal mine city in Northeastern Pennsylvania. You may heard of Hazleton from the major illegal immigration debate in 2006 where the Mayor wanted to kick all of the illegal aliens out of the city, and fine those who did business with them. Well in the past everybody got along, crime was hardly around, murders were never heard of, and illegal drugs were hardly ever a problem. Then something happened, Hazleton changed, forever! People from the outside moved in, mostly honest, and hardworking looking to escape cities likes Philadelphia, Boston, and New York City to a life of quietness, and safety. All was fine, but only for a short while. With the influx of people from large cities came criminals in the forms of Illegal Immigrants, drugs dealers, and murderers. It hit Hazleton like a bomb. Everywhere you went there were drugs. All the construction, restaurant, and many factory employees were illegal immigrants. And murders, well I believe there were more murders in a three year period of this century, than the whole 80′s and 90’s decades combined.
I thought I was invulnerable to all of this misfortune because of how strong minded I thought I was. But having come up with a less than loving background, a curious demeanor, and suffering from bipolar disorder the cards were stacked against me.
Unfortunately, for me, I became a victim of drug abuse and it ruined me from the very start. During my 30′s, from 1997 to 2007 I was very heavy into illegal drugs. My drugs of choice were Crack Cocaine and heroin. But anything else was fine too, as long as it got me high. I was evil, so evil. I lied, cheated, stole, conned, you name it I did it just to get high. Doing drugs resulted in a loss of a marriage with three children.
An out of marriage child, a ten year relationship (If you call it that) full of lies, adultery, deceit, and of course DRUGS! I have a daughter born with drug induced disabilities, and yes I do hate myself for her disabilities. And I lost my son (her brother) because I cannot see them anymore because their mother and I hate each other.
For a decade I loved, lost love, hurt all of my family, and was a terrible husband, boyfriend, and father. I went to jail for stealing. Went to jail three times for not paying child support because I was a crack head. And yet I am still paying back support. I hurt everyone that was close to me. I went to Jail in April 2006 for not paying child support, and hiding from the law for a year. I served five months in the Work-Release program.
I got out in September, wanting to clean myself up. But that did not last long. I was living at my mother’s while my girlfriend of 8 years lived at her parents. I worked for about 4 months off and on. Then I stole from my parents and sisters so bad they kicked me out in June 2007. And to no one’s surprise I had another warrant for my arrest for not paying child support, and failing to go to court.
So it was June, I was homeless. I moved in with my sister’s boyfriend’s twin brother which was another mistake I made. He was recently released from jail for parole violations and other crimes. Everything was fine and life went on with the usual partying and occurrences at first. Our apartment turned into the unofficial crack house of Hazleton.
Everything and everything illegal was done there. From drugs, to prostitution, to illegal guns, and even harboring other fugitive’s. From June to December 2007 I did more drugs, and drank more beer than in the previous three years combined. During that last period, I conned my girlfriend out of hundreds of dollars, even to the point where she would steal a few hundred here and there from her parents to give to me. I later found out it was money she would give me to not be around her while he was in another relationship and she was afraid to tell me because of my violent behavior. I even sank low stole her food stamps, food out my children’s mouths to cash in to purchase drugs to fill my habit.
About September I went through a depressed week or so. Being bipolar I often had these moments where I hated life and all around me. During that time I was talking to my roommate’s girlfriend and daughter (both were drug free) about wanting to quit drugs. They supported my decision, but that unfortunately would not make me stop using. I still did drugs, stole from stores, and even supported my roommate’s niece to sell herself for drug money. I had some female friends that were, to be rated PG ”Sex buddies” where we had sex with each other, and with other people, just females for me, to get drugs and money. I was so out of control, and thought I would eventually overdose or even kill myself.
Then my roommate and I were evicted from our apartment (I bet you’re not surprised). So I moved in with his girlfriend, and her daughter. He eventually went to jail for violations of parole again which was a blessing to many. And while I lived with them, still a fugitive, I started a relationship (Mainly sex, and drugs) with the 21 year old daughter. And being the evil person I was I got her started on crack to feed my habit. And since she was socially awkward and the nerd type, I kept her satisfied sexually just to get money from her by telling her what she wanted to hear.
Christmas 2007 came and I got so depressed about not seeing my kids, and even talked about suicide. I drank a whole fifth of Smirnoff 100 proof No 57 Vodka in less than three hours, smoked crack, did heroin and passed out hoping to die. But I woke up the next day, alive, I was so shocked, and so were a few other people. My life was total shit!! I never thought I would wind up like this, basically alone, homeless (sort of), on drugs, no family, no job virtually nothing in my life but drugs. And by the way in five months I went from 210 to 155 from drugs, I was a toothpick. I firmly believe that my state of depression around the week of Christmas was a turning point for me in my life.
I began to change mentally, and in some way spiritually.
I had no desire to do drug as much as before. I isolated myself from almost everyone, and just thought about my life and what happened to it. New Year’s Eve came, and as usual there was a hard party full of drugs and other goods at a friend’s house. We were basically joking about resolutions, like getting off drugs, and no stealing which everyone ever intended to do. I was smoking some crack that day and night, and drinking beer too. During the early evening I was watching everyone from the party, and my mind was racing. I was realizing that I could not do it anymore; I could not ruin the rest of my life. I was underweight, my teeth were rotten and falling out. My vision was poor, and my health was poor. I did not speak, but watched everyone make a fool out of themselves. I think what pushed me was seeing 16 and 17 year olds smoking crack.
As I have previously stated around 10 p.m. on New Year’s Eve. I was smoking crack, drinking, and going through hell emotionally. Everyone seemed like freaking assholes doing what they were doing there. My friends knew something was wrong, but they were more worried about crack and having sex than me. I had two bags of crack on my. I started to smoke the first one, I did not enjoy it. I waited a few minutes than smoked the second one. While doing that bag I stopped. I said “Fuck it, I can’t do this anymore” I flushed the pipe, rest of the bag, and told everyone to “Fuck Off”. And I left.
I went to my temporary place of residence; oh I had to sneak in because the landlord knew I was an addict and did not want me there. I totally isolated myself from everything in life. The next few weeks were living hell for me as at first temptation was running rampant, and then loads of anger, and resentment. But during my isolation I started reading the bible a lot, and really letting it soak in. My isolation abruptly ended when about six officers kicked in the door and hauled me out of jail for my warrants. That was February 21, 2008, 52 days clean. I was immediately sentenced to six months in Jail on the work-release program for not paying support. While in jail me, on my own accord, started two drug and alcohol coerces to keep clean. This was the first time in my life I did this. Then for some reason, and I you knew me past 10 years you would have been shocked, I took a 10 lesson Bible course. I loved it; all through jail I worked, went to counseling, psychological too, and did my Bible course. Well I was due to be released August 21, but something happened. I have a child in Northampton County; well his mother filed contempt of court charges for not paying child support there either. So I was picked up by their sheriff’s department and transported to their jail in Easton.
I was sentenced to five months in jail there too. I continued my classes and therapy, and went to bible study. Surprisingly on January 2, 2008 I was released. I was in shock, ten months in jail and going home. Upon release I took the bus back to Hazleton, where for a short time I lived with my family, but after a week I met a girl and moved in with her, and yes she was drug, and alcohol free. I dated her until March, but it was a relationship never to be. I then met a woman, Chelle, while on the web. She came to Hazleton from Georgia where her parents live, but she hails from Portland Oregon. She and I hit it off fast, and very romantically. She just ended a crazy relationship too. She and I were perfect together; we fell in love very quick. After she had an issue with her ex, I moved in with her on April fool’s day. We lived together, totally in love until we got married June 10, 2009. Yes so quickly, but we seemed like mates. She wanted to go to Millersville University by Lancaster to finish her Bachelors in early childhood education, and I wanted out of Hazleton. We moved to our present location on July 1, 2009. I cannot say life has been perfect, unfortunately I suffer from Bi-polar disorder, and while trying to get the right medicine combination I can be nasty. But wife loves me to death, and she is sticking by me. Work here is very hard to find for me since we have one car, and I have no license to drive. So to kill the time while I am looking for a job. I got all my teeth removed and got false teeth, I now wear classes, I dress better, I am up to 230 lbs. I eat better; I took online courses at Axia College of University of Phoenix in Arts in Business Management. And happily I have received my AA in Business in September 2010. I am currently 5 and a half year’s drug free now and never want to look back.
I hope this story can inspire others in their quest to be clean and improve their lives. It can happen, I am living proof.
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PORT ST. LUCIE, Fla. — A South Florida man may regret his selfie after photos posted on Facebook led to his arrest.
According to the Martin County Sheriff’s Office Facebook page, Taylor Harrison, 21, was bragging about his life as a drug dealer on his Facebook page. Harrison posted photos of himself selling drugs next to deputies, according to the MCSO.
The photos led to his arrest.
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